birthday 2025

15/09/2025

i'm a little late with this entry, but august 30th was my birthday! this year i turned 27... it's kind of hard to believe! i don't feel 27 at all! i think in a lot of ways covid and quarantine halted a few years for me and i still feel the same as i did before then. it's been a hard thing to work through, i'll be honest... but i do think this is going to be my last year of "stalling" so to speak before i actually start the rest of my life. maybe next year i'll finally start "feeling" my age. i plan to go over all that in an end-of-the-year retrospective though!! this is about my birthday!!

i'm a firm believer that birthdays are something that should always be special! i think it's so cold-hearted to decide that there's an age where you become "too old" to celebrate another trip around the sun. whenever people devalue birthdays or express shock that someone like, books the day off work for their birthday or something, i get kinda sad!! i think every year of life is worthy of celebration and everyone should have at least one day where they really get to spoil themselves ♡

so i always try to make my birthday as nice as possible! and my birthday was very nice this year!! i had a couple different things going on. the monday before i got dinner with a group of my friends. we went to this place we all like but rarely go to because it's pricey and i had a lot of fun chatting and eating with everyone!! i mentioned this last time i discussed my birthday but i don't typically do gifts with my friends because i don't feel financially content enough to spoil them as much as they spoil me (something i'm hoping to change next year!!), but usually end up getting a gift or two from some of my dear friends anyway. this year was no different and i want to brag about one of my gifts!!

one of my friends started doing clay art a few years back. this friend Hates doing art. she insists she's terrible at it and that the whole process upsets and frustrates her because it "turns out ugly" (her words). that being so, i have a few things this friend has made for me (our friend group used to make a rule out of only doing homemade gifts for christmas) and they are some of my most dear possessions. i won't lie, they're not professional work by any means. they're pretty frumpy! she made me a little my melody plushie out of a sock one year and when she gave it to me there was a hole in the arm's stitching and stuffing was falling out. it is the most precious thing i own and if anything ever happens to it i'll cry buckets.

so her clay pieces started out much the same!! we had a really good laugh over christmas last year because she made each of us one based on one of our interests and some of them were really funky looking. but i was absolutely obsessed with them. some of my favourite things she's ever done. i cannot understate how endeared and smitten i was by these things. they're just so charming!!! and knowing she put her time and energy into them even though she hates doing art stuff is so!!! i've become her biggest fan. whenever i see something made of clay i send a picture to her and ask her to make it instead (if she wants to). and she's honestly improving so much??? for someone who has never touched clay before and does so very very rarely she's genuinely getting better each time she makes something and at like, an alarming rate??? like look at these clowns she made me for my birthday:

are they not the cutest!!!!! i'm so obsessed. they're so darling. i'm so lucky to have friends like this!! i know that was a pretty long tangent to go on but i cannot understate how happy i am to receive such a thoughtful and homemade gift!!!

so that was monday! let's talk about the day of! me and one of my friends make a game out of being the First Person to wish anyone in your friend group happy birthday right at midnight, and i'm particularly competitive about sending the first message for myself on my own birthday, mostly because i think it's funny. so i got it ready like, 15 minutes before 12, but i saw my friend also type in discord so i was like.... hm...... and then at 11:59, a few seconds too early, she sent a birthday message and had to immediately delete it. so i got to swoop in just in time. its kind of a silly little thing but it made me really happy to see her remember so diligently! it happens every year but it always makes me really warm and happy inside.

during the day, i took myself out on a date! i went downtown and got sushi at my favourite spot for lunch, then walked around and went to a bunch of cute stores. i didn't end up buying much but i had a great time regardless!! i was wearing the care bears dress i made for anime north and i got a lot of compliments on it so i felt extra special ♡

when i got home, my dad bought me wings from my favourite place for dinner and i spent the rest of the night playing games with my friends. i organized a very 2020-coded discord birthday game night because i've always, always wanted to play gmod prop hunt with my friends but have never been able to convince them to. using my birthday as leverage, prop hunt was sufficiently played 😌 it was really fun, but i didn't have a lot of time to pick out maps so i think i'm going to try again next year with more planning! we also played some among us for the first time in a long time though and that was SUPER fun... i was so grateful to everyone for making time for me! all in all it was a super fun time and i'm really glad i organized it!!

this was the first time i celebrated a birthday without my mom in my company. she called me in the morning and seemed very sorry about that fact, but i'm glad she's enjoying her extended vacation. my brother and his family are out of town right now too, so since it was just me and my dad we didn't really do anything celebratory wise! he spoiled me with food a bit and that was all. he did ask if i wanted a cake but i was already eating so much yesterday that i told him not to bother and that i would just pester my mom to make her famous rum cake when she gets back ( ´ ▿ ) my sister-in-law told me we'd celebrate when they get back too, which was nice of her!

maybe this is a little bleak to mention on an otherwise happy post, but it was also my first time celebrating a birthday since my dog passed... i mean, it's not like she ever knew it was my birthday or acted differently accordingly, but it was something i noticed. with all the loved ones absent from my immediately family this year, i'm really grateful i was still able to make my birthday super fun and special regardless. i think in times like these it's more important than ever to stay positive and really treat yourself, and i spoiled myself so silly i didn't really have any time to feel sad!

so that was my birthday! on sunday, i was supposed to go to this clown event at a local alt fashion store but i ended up so tired out by my birthday events that i stayed home... a bit of shame really, i did a bunch of crocheting for my outfit and even bought face paint! i guess i'll have to dress up like a clown one day just for fun instead.

too bad - doug and the slugs