little things

14/06/2025

a postcard

recently a friend of mine went on a trip to china and japan! while there, he asked me for an address that he could send something to. even though it'd be strange, i just assumed he was going to mail the stuff i asked him to pick up for me (sugio dj purchased and incoming btw), but instead i received a hello kitty themed postcard from china! it's decorated with cute little stickers and has a message that was short but incredibly sweet. he wrote that he also sent postcards to two of our friends as well, but sent me the postcard with the beisi pagoda on it because he had a mental image of me in a qipao in front of it... a long time ago, him and i were having a discussion regarding the line between cultural appropriation and appreciation. during the conversation i mentioned that i’ve always really loved qipao’s and think they’re so beautiful but wouldn’t wear one as i do not want to be appropriative even if by accident. he's chinese, and at the time he was really encouraging and said that my appreciation was felt, so the fact that it stayed in his mind this long after was incredibly sweet...!

he’s a very good friend of mine, but we’ve never been the type of people to be sentimental with each other. so the postcard and the sincerity in it really shocked me... because of our nature it’s a bit awkward for me to tell him how much it meant to receive something so thoughtful and sweet. i tried a little, but it still came out very jokey and unserious... so instead i am posting about it here! i love the idea of sending postcards while on vacation. he said it was something a friend had done to him in the past and he wanted to try it, and i'm definitely going to steal this idea when i go on vacations in the future! what a lovely thing! it's something i'm going to treasure for a very long time

a nephew

on the topic of me being severely emotionally constipated, i want to take some time to fawn over my baby nephew!! expressing affection to him in real life feels embarrassing for me (because of course it does) (someone help this woman) and whenever i talk about him i always worry i'll get annoying going on and on... but he's just so cute!!!

he's a very funny baby. he has barely just learned to crawl and he is already trying so hard to stand up and walk around. he was trying to before he even started crawling! he's just so curious and busy, when he does learn to walk he's going to be such a handful... he rarely fusses, but he has trouble getting to sleep because he loves looking around at things and will fuss a bit when he's sleepy. it's so cute watching how curious and nosy he is ♡

seeing his interactions with my brothers dog has been my favourite part... him and his wife have a tiny yorkie that she got a couple of years ago, and while the dogs never been particularly protective, she's very protective over the baby!! whenever the baby starts to crawl she runs over and fusses over him... if he cries for even one second without a parent in motion she starts barking at them... sometimes when i hold him she sits in front of my legs like she's on guard. one time my brother tossed a treat for her but tossed it a little too far and it landed next to the baby, and she wouldn't go for it as if she thought it was his treat. usually she's very pro-stealing food!! it's just so sweet!!!

i do worry a little for his future... the type of men that young boys look to for "role models" these days are extremely disgusting creatures and the idea that my sweet nephew may one day go down that pipeline frightens me. on the one hand i'm excited for him to start talking and i'm especially excited to be able to start playing games with him (our minecraft world is gonna go crazy), but i also wish he'd stay this young and pleasant forever...

lately he's started being able to recognize voices and faces! he gets really excited when he hears my mom coming over, and when i'm around he'll stare at me for a really long time. i like to pretend to fight with him and very lightly tap him on his face with my fists and he always laughs a lot and smiles. a sweetheart!!! suffice to say, i am enjoying being an auntie.

a website

lately i've been really motivated to work on my site! maybe you've noticed from the little changes i've been making or the extreme increase in diary entries this year, but i'm having a lot of fun thinking about my site and dreaming up ideas... the problem is a lot of my ideas involve me needing to take photos in real life, and finding the motivation to do that is a lot more difficult than finding the motivation to clack on my keyboard!

there are two crossed-out pages on my new sitemap: a craft creations page and a my melody shrine. the melo shrine is something i've been working on for a very long time now... i've had the base page coded for ages, but i'd like to fill it with pictures of all the melo memorabilia i have and making time to actually take those pictures is a huge struggle for a procrastinator like me. the same can be said for my craft creations page. i have at least some pictures taken for that one, but the things i've made are kind of strewn around in awkward places and the idea of digging stuff out is so zzz... i could just use old pictures i have of them, but i have a very clear idea in mind of how i want the page to be. it's hard being fussy!! i want to photograph all the shirts and dresses on my dress form so they look super nice and proper and my dress form has just been assembled in my room hanging out for like a week now. it's very inconvenient. will i do anything about this? probably not any time soon!!

a right now

in any case! i think i'm going back into my nothing-going-on era. i'm getting scheduled a lot at work lately, so i think i will mostly just be working and gaming for the foreseeable future! that's fine by me. i hate to work but i love the money. i'd really like to have a kawaii summer where i only wear super cute outfits too, so i might focus some more time on sewing and make some clothing purchases i've wanted for a while with the aforementioned work money hehe.

i think the only thing i'm really worried about is that my mom is going out of town for a couple of months pretty soon... even though i'm way too old for it, i still rely on my mom a lot! my dad is staying at home with me, but we're more like coworkers than anything... i can't rely on him like i can rely on the big boss LOL. i'm a little excited to build up some independence while she's gone though. it's pretty embarrassing how much i depend on my parents at this age! maybe some time apart will be good for me.

rose-colored boy - paramore